MadmanAndMystic aka The 29-year-old Virgo...

Yes, that's right! I, MadmanAndMystic, am officially 29 years old as of September the 15th 2008. I realized that this is the last time there will be a "2" in front of the numbers representing my age...unless of course science progresses exponentially (fingers crossing and silent prayer being sent out to the universe) and I live to be 200 years old. I think that if George Burns lived to be 100 years old that I can live to be 200! That's not a bad goal is it? Other people focus on the accumulation of money, but I will focus on the accumulation of birthdays. I wonder what my cake would look like with 200 candles on it. Shit! What would I look like at 200? I can't imagine it! And what friends and family would I have around to help me celebrate it? My great, great, great great, great grandchildren who would wish I were dead already so they could turn the extra bedroom into an intergalactic transporter? I can hear them now " I can't believe he's still alive! If I have to hear that damn story about those payphone thingies they had back in the 20th century and how you had to always carry small pieces of round metallic monetary metaphors in your pocket so you can talk to someone I'm going to freeze dry myself!!! I can't take his psychobable anymore! Yesterday when I was eating my salad he told me they used to use horse shit to help tomatoes and vegetables grow and I almost threw up. That's disgusting!"
Is that how it would be? I wonder! Would you want to live to be 200 or is your curiosity overpowering you to find out if there is life after death? I think I'm curious about life after death, but like Woody Allen said " It's not that I'm afraid to die, I just don't want to be there when it happens." I guess my wanting to stay alive to 200 signifies a fear of death, so maybe I really don't want to know what happens in the post mortum. What if nothing happens? What if it's like when you close the lights? Nothing! Just nothing! It scares me to ponder thoughts like that, but no matter what I think, or say, or write one day I will have to face my fear and close my eyes for good.........with the hope that they open even wider on some other side... till then I leave you with that...


Happy Birthday to me!!!